Three years ago I had a riveting conversation with my business mentor at the time. This is a person not in our community, and I’ve never even mentioned this person’s name publicly. I said “My online business is really taking off! Kinda makes me want to go online 100% and sell my practice!” My mentor responded “Hm, eight years. Wouldn’t it have a nicer ring to it if it were 10? Then you could say that you ran a practice for a decade! Yeah you should hang in there so you can say that.”
Ironically….!!!! Later this mentor of mine revealed to me their own mental health issues while coaching me. Telling me about ulterior motives, and jealousy of my success. My mentor would withhold powerful books, resources, and ideas because of the fear that I would succeed “too much.”
WHAT?! Who can you trust right? Choosing a mentor and choosing to follow his/her advice is a personal responsibility thing. I take full responsibility for following this advice. At the same time, it’s so important to find mentors who are clean and clear on a spiritual, emotional, and holistic level. CLEAN AND CLEAR is my mantra!
Meanwhile I can’t help but think of hindsight. What if I had gone with my gut and made the bold move? Where would I be today? I was ready at the time, no doubt. I was on fire with our continuing education courses!
No regrets though =) It’s *not* about using rose-colored glasses for hindsight. It is all about feeling no regrets and finding meaning in all aspects of life’s past events.
Even if I had sold my practice years ago, I would not have learned all that I’ve learned at this point. OR I would have learned a whole slew of other lessons. I have no clue. So, let me get back to the point of this post.
The image above was one of our inaugural drum circles at our clinic space!
Why I Left My Practice
For a few years I had a lot going on with my career. Online publisher, speaker, blog post writer, individual coach, group coach, drum circle facilitator, music therapy clinician, employer, and more. If you run a business, then I know I’m not impressing you. We wear a million hats when we run *any* kind of business.
But it was getting trickier with two very separate target markets. On the one hand, I wanted to please my San Diego based administrators and decision makers. On the other hand, I had a global pool of music therapists and clinicians to please. So that was overwhelming.
Then we opened up a space. That meant an entire NEW market in addition to older adults… we started serving kids. Target market #3. Don’t get me wrong – I love kids, and I can rock out some early childhood classes like none other.
But my online business was busting at the seams.
And then came rent, payroll, mileage, equipment, and taxes for the practice. Running a brick and mortar is no joke.
One day I sat down and looked at my profit and loss statement, comparing my business ventures. I measured my weekly time allocations. I realized that although my practice stayed afloat, it brought in 20-25% of my revenue and pulled out 60% of my expenses, resources, and time. At that point last year, I came to the decision to feel GREAT about having built my practice to the point of opening a space. And I felt even better about the prospect of letting it go.
I would sit back and ponder what new management would do for the practice. What kind of fresh air would waft in if a new perspective ran the show? I felt intense liberation when I pictured a successor coming in to breathe new life into the work. I felt it would best serve my clients and the sweet, little, powerful movement I started 11 years ago.
The thing is… I’ve felt that way for 3+ years. What was holding me back? All sorts of fears around what people would think. Also, would I still be able to keep my pulse on the field if I wasn’t running a practice? Would I lose my special connection with other clinicians? What if my online business bottomed out? What if my colleagues became disappointed? The list goes on =)
What Pushed Me Over the Edge
Ultimately, it was the very difficult emotional trauma I experienced that pushed me over the edge. My desire to heal from the trauma was greater than my fears of not running a practice. It literally took traumatic events to make me do what I’ve needed to do for a long time.
Which brings me to my life focus TODAY… Being well, feeling good, and making MUSIC.
Letting go of my practice has opened space for other enriching experiences to come in. I always felt like practicing music therapy was good for our clients AND for myself as a clinician. I would walk away from sessions beaming with delight! Seeing a client move from being broken to breaking through… It was incredibly rewarding.
I’m Thankful for TRAUMA: My teacher
This is why I’m so thankful for the traumatic events of 2016. The traumatic events made me take a hard look at what “being well” means. And when I was able to use essential oils to bring in wellness through all the physical symptoms of trauma… Something shifted within myself.
I experience the same rewarding thrill with essential oils as I did as a clinician. I use them for my own health, and I get to witness the transformation of others using them too.
The traumatic events, essential oils, and all the friendships along the way have helped me stay in touch with my higher purpose.
As a fellow helping professional, I can’t recommend essential oils enough. For health AND for business. They’ve been a life-saver in my journey!
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