I had a WONDERFUL time with the Great Lakes Music Therapists in Minneapolis! What an awesome region, full of good energy, full of bright shiny happy DEDICATED people. I loved every second. Here’s a sneak peek at the grand finale of my keynote:
The day before I arrived in Minneapolis, I found out my grandfather died. I admired my grandfather very much. I even filmed a 90-minute video on his war and Great Depression stories. Plus, when I visited him in Ohio, he played “mouth organ” and I played 6-string. We got along well, and became well-known and loved among his peers =)
When I found out he had died, I couldn’t imagine giving a keynote to dozens (or hundreds) of music therapists. But when I walked into the concert hall Thursday night before my talk, I saw a guitarist and harmonica-player performing. I took that as a sign from my grampa that I was in the right place. As Shawshank Redemption’s Andy Dufresne put it, “Get busy living, or get busy dying.” Death and loss are a great reminder to keep living. And so, I spoke the next morning, and privately dedicated my talk to my grandfather. God winks 😉
NOW, I’ll be the first to call myself out on this one… My keynote was on self-care. I bragged about not getting sick this year and skipping over flu season. I shared this statement: (notice the LAKE in honor of Minnesota!)
THEN the next day, I got knocked out COLD with a gnarly flu-ish like thing with body aches.
No doubt, it was from the girl on the shuttle from the Minneapolis airport to the hotel. She was going to a writers conference, and she had piles and piles of kleenex stacked up on her lap… the “used” kind. Red nose, nasally voice, constant blowing… (It feels better to blame someone anonymous, who I’ll never see again.) That was Thursday.
I didn’t get to a zicam until Saturday, when my husband Matt and I were biking through San Francisco. It was one of those rides where he said “Oh it’s just up the hill.” We would arrive at the top of the hill, only to find that there was yet another GIANT San-Fran-style hill to mount. Oh, those husbands…. =)
I could FEEL myself getting worse with every pump of the bike pedal. We stopped at a CVS along the way and bought zicam. It only delayed the inevitable.
I had to cancel my participation in facilitating a caregiver’s retreat this weekend. This retreat is literally the HIGHLIGHT of my career as a service provider. This is where I do my best work. Cancelled with substitute filling in. (And I’m very thankful for the substitute and the other amazing facilitators for understanding!)
I’m taking my own advice:
Here I am at a space in between. I’m deciding not to run on empty.
If I think about the work at Music Therapy Ed, or writing emails, or marketing our private practice, then my sore throat literally gets worse.
If I start cleaning up our place, putting plants into pots, rearranging stuff and throwing things away, then my body aches LOUDLY.
Those are my indicator lights: throat flaring up, body aching, eyes drooping, falling asleep. My body is saying “Slow down, Turbo.” So, in between long, deep naps and trips to the kitchen to heat up water for tea, I’m writing. Writing helps me clear my head. And it doesn’t make any indicator lights go on.
Perusing the web for self-care articles also triggers no indicator lights. I found this article by Katey Kratz (great pix!). I found this one from Elephant Journal (specific to women and exhaustion). And of course, there’s always this amazing group on Facebook.
Here are 6 experiences I’m cherishing while letting my cold run its course:
- Taking long, hot baths with salts and candles
- Sleeping while cuddling with my furry friends
- Putting lotion on my skin. ever. so. slowly. after the bath
- Brushing my teeth at SNAIL’s pace
- Lying in my bed feeling exactly like the times when I was a kid and had NO obligations, nothing to worry about, nobody to meet, nowhere to be, and just curl up
- Making the most delicious homemade soups with better-than-bouillon, kale, spinach, cilantro, grated ginger and garlic, onion, chicken or sausage, orzo…. mmmmmmmm!!!
I hope you are staying well, strong, and healthy for this week.
Be well, feel good, and make MUSIC! Kat